i don’t know what to do anymore. 

but the thing is i’ll still wake up tomorrow and pretend like i know how to handle this stuff like i have this past month.

but i’m scared for when that doesn’t work anymore…

i was putting my “little brother” to bed and i was laying next to him singing so he would fall asleep. but i started crying and he just lay next to me, rubbing my face/forehead area gently. he’s two and a half. i love him.